Stories · 1883

From the Diary of a Young Lady

Из дневника одной девицы

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1 Published in 1883, when Chekhov — twenty-three, still signing himself “Antosha Chekhonte,” still selling miniatures by the column-inch to the Moscow comic weeklies — had already turned the diary entry into one of his standard small forms. The device is simple and durable: a first-person narrator who understands less than the reader does, recording her days in the confident, breathless present tense of a girl convinced she is the heroine of a romance.

2 The joke works by withholding. The narrator sees a handsome stranger loitering outside her window for days on end, reads it as courtship, and fills in a plot — rivalry with her sister Varya, secret messages chalked on a gate, a rakish “I’m not opposed, only later.” The reader, given exactly the same facts she is, arrives at the real story first: the man is a plainclothes policeman watching the house because her brother Seryozha, home after a long absence, is wanted for embezzlement. By the time she reports the arrest, in the entry for the 19th, she still cannot see what has actually happened in front of her for six days running.

3 It is an early exercise in the technique the mature Chekhov would refine rather than abandon: the narrator who is not to be trusted, and a truth that arrives through the gaps in what she notices rather than through anything she says. Here the mode is still pure comedy — vain, silly, quick — but the mechanism, a first-person voice too self-absorbed to read its own evidence, is the same one that later carries the interior monologues of “Ionych” and “The Darling.”

The 13th of October. At last, at last, a holiday on my street! I look and I don’t believe my own eyes. Back and forth in front of my windows walks a tall, well-built brunet with deep black eyes. His moustache — a delight! He has been walking for five days now, from early morning to late at night, and he keeps looking at our windows the whole time. I pretend not to notice.
13-го октября. Наконец-то и на моей улице праздник! Гляжу и не верю своим глазам. Перед моими окнами взад и вперед ходит высокий, статный брюнет с глубокими черными глазами. Усы – прелесть! Ходит уже пятый день, от раннего утра до поздней ночи, и всё на наши окна смотрит. Делаю вид, что не обращаю внимания.
The 15th. A downpour since early this morning, and he, poor thing, still walks. As a reward I made eyes at him and blew him a kiss. He answered with a bewitching smile. Who is he? My sister Varya says he’s in love with her and gets soaked in the rain for her sake. How dense she is! Can a brunet possibly love a brunette? Mama told us to dress better and sit by the windows. “Perhaps he’s some sort of swindler, and perhaps he’s a decent gentleman,” she said. A swindler... quel (French: what a) idea... How stupid you are, Mama!
15-го. Сегодня с самого утра проливной дождь, а он, бедняжка, ходит. В награду сделала ему глазки и послала воздушный поцелуй. Ответил обворожительной улыбкой. Кто он? Сестра Варя говорит, что он в нее влюблен и что ради нее мокнет на дожде. Как она неразвита! Ну, может ли брюнет любить брюнетку? Мама велела нам получше одеваться и сидеть у окон. "Может быть, он жулик какой-нибудь, а может быть, и порядочный господин", – сказала она. Жулик... quel какой (франц.).... Глупы вы, мамаша!
The 16th. Varya says I’ve ruined her life. Is it my fault he loves me and not her! I accidentally dropped a little note for him on the pavement. Oh, the schemer! He wrote on his sleeve in chalk: “Later.” Then he walked and walked, and wrote on the gate opposite: “I’m not opposed, only later.” Wrote it in chalk and quickly rubbed it out. Why is my heart beating so?
16-го. Варя говорит, что я заела ее жизнь. Виновата я, что он любит меня, а не ее! Нечаянно уронила ему на тротуар записочку. О, коварщик! Написал у себя мелом на рукаве: "После". А потом ходил, ходил и написал на воротах vis-a-vis: "Я не прочь, только после". Написал мелом и быстро стер. Отчего у меня сердце так бьется?
The 17th. Varya struck me in the chest with her elbow. The vile, low schemer! Today he stopped a policeman and talked with him a long while, pointing at our windows. He’s plotting something! Bribing him, no doubt... You men are tyrants and despots, but how cunning and how beautiful you are!
17-го. Варя ударила меня локтем в грудь. Подлая, мерзкая завистница! Сегодня он остановил городового и долго говорил ему что-то, показывая на наши окна. Интригу затевает! Подкупает, должно быть... Тираны и деспоты вы, мужчины, но как вы хитры и прекрасны!
The 18th. Today, after a long absence, my brother Seryozha arrived at night. He had scarcely lain down in bed when they came and summoned him to the precinct.
18-го. Сегодня, после долгого отсутствия, приехал ночью брат Сережа. Не успел он лечь в постель, как его потребовали в квартал.
The 19th. The wretch! The vileness of it! It turns out that all these twelve days he had been tracking my brother Seryozha, who had embezzled someone’s money and gone into hiding.
19-го. Гадина! Мерзость! Оказывается, что он все эти двенадцать дней выслеживал брата Сережу, который растратил чьи-то деньги и скрылся.
Today he wrote on the gate: “I am free now, and I may.” The brute... I stuck my tongue out at him.
Сегодня он написал на воротах: "Я свободен и могу". Скотина... Показала ему язык.

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